I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else ...

But you.

Some might call it a "Juno" fit, but for me it's more than a cheesy soundtrack song. Ahhhh, how the days pass by and my thoughts remain the same. It's truly amazing because I can normally dismiss most things in my life as easily as I can bat an eye. Not this. My mind races through the days and nights and no matter what I do or how I occupy myself I continue to end up where I started; thinking of everything I want slipping through my fingers and I am helpless to stop it. I do try to stay optimistic, but those who know me understand that I am a pessimist in an idealists clothing. There are some things I truly believe to be real and I honestly think that one day this will all work out. It just requires patience ... something I obviously need to work on. It's hard to endure all of these feelings with no outlet to feed them into. It's just me. Who do you talk to? I love my friends dearly, but they all think I've lost my mind for continuing as long as I have and to tell them that I can't let myself give up would be admitting utter insanity. I always was a little crazy though ... and I won't stop believing. I can't stop believing. I saw, heard and felt something that keeps me moving. Some might call it wandering. Whatever it may be, the cost of sticking with my beliefs is worth the reward. And if there is no reward at the end, would it still be worth it? The optimist in me believes that it will be.