A New Year

All -

I have not much to say on this last evening of 2008, but I want to wish everyone a very Happy 2009. Here's to a better year for all of us ... filled with love and laughter.

xoxo -
L

Who Can You Trust

Life experience has taught me so many things ... who I can go to for help, who I look for for guidance, etc., but I was never properly introduced to the subject of trust and those who are keepers of such a beast. Instead, I often find myself led blindly into the abyss hoping that the person taking my hand is a trusted friend. How often have we all found this not to be true or even worse yet, how often have we found ourselves questioning such a person. Since my separation and eventual divorce I have been trying to make myself have that sort of faith in other individuals, but more often than not I feel lost, alone and ultimately betrayed. Is this something that people purposely do to each other or is a symptom of something else, possibly out of our control. And if someone betrays your trust can you let them back in with open arms without the fear of eventual repetition?

I always try to look for the good in the people around me and I often come back with astounding results except for when it comes to matters of the heart. Those people I truly care about I seemingly can not read as well as the others or maybe it's that I let my feelings get in the way of what I know is right. Either way you look at it, there is still a matter of trust, a matter of obligation to ones friends and loved ones. How can something like that be measured and weighed. At the end of the day, how do you know who won't hurt you ... who you can trust.